In these sultry July days which I love, I walk in the evenings. Wildfire smoke from Canada renders the sun bloody. In the heat, there’s few folks out. I often follow the trail along the river to the pastures where cows graze. The air, fat with humidity, is redolent with wet earth and cowshit. The smell reminds me of those childhood camping trips and those journeys in my twenties when we explored the West, driving around with Rand McNally and pitching a tent in a forest or farmer’s field.

The world indeed might be going mad, the planet hurtling into fire and heat. On these July evenings, though, it’s me and those cows and the wildflowers blooming rampantly. In the night, rain patters. I leave the cats sleeping in their hot fur and slip outside. It’s so far along in the night that this village is sleeping, too early yet for milk trucks, too late for teenagers. I sit on the steps in the tiny cool bits of raindrops, tree frogs and crickets chorusing.

I’ve posted this poem before, but Hayden Carruth is always worth reading again, and this remains one of my favorites.

The Cows at Night

The moon was like a full cup tonight,
too heavy, and sank in the mist
soon after dark, leaving for light

faint stars and the silver leaves
of milkweed beside the road,
gleaming before my car.

Yet I like driving at night
in summer and in Vermont:
the brown road through the mist

of mountain-dark, among farms
so quiet, and the roadside willows
opening out where I saw

the cows. Always a shock
to remember them there, those
great breathings close in the dark.

I stopped, and took my flashlight
to the pasture fence. They turned
to me where they lay, sad

and beautiful faces in the dark,
and I counted them–forty
near and far in the pasture,

turning to me, sad and beautiful
like girls very long ago
who were innocent, and sad

because they were innocent,
and beautiful because they were
sad. I switched off my light.

But I did not want to go,
not yet, nor knew what to do
if I should stay, for how

in that great darkness could I explain
anything, anything at all.
I stood by the fence. And then

very gently it began to rain.