Early Corn

When I left the hospital ten years ago with my newborn daughter, June had arrived while I spent those days in the birthing center.  Every day that May, it had rained, cold rain and humid sticky rain, all day rain and brief passing showers.  Every variety of Vermont rain had stormed that month:  a rainy season to cap a pregnancy that, by its end, I felt near to drowning with its effort.  Walking up the stairs, I had to linger on the landing and gasp for breath.  Sleeping, I startled wake, choking for air.

But when we left, we drove past black-soil farm fields freshly plowed.  In regular furrows, early corn had sprouted during those few days of my confinement.  The pregnancy over, my healthy and whole infant in my arms, I was jubilant, and the earth herself appeared rapturous.  That summer proved especially dry and hot.

On this Memorial Day, May 30th, a day of sadness beyond sadness, here’s a David Budbill poem from Happy Life:

Early June

Hard rain all night
morning rags of mist
hang scattered
between the
blue-green hills.

photo by Molly S.

photo by Molly S.

Sailing

Just about ten years ago, I gave birth to my second child.  Like I imagine death, birth is a sacred space, and by that I mean nothing with a blue aura and a mandala on the wall, but a space that is wholly out of secular time.  When I labored with my first child, I had to travel so far to get her.  The geographical map of her birth was only a few rooms, but the journey for her to arrive in my arms, squalling and ruby-lipped, was beyond measure.

As my daughter begins traversing her own female journey, I tucked in a poem among her treasured birthday cards.  This poem has the quickness of a child, coupled with maternal blessings.  Poetry, in its own sacred territory, is a litany to murmur in the soul’s dark night, a comfort and conjoining between people, a radiant gift to offer a beloved child. Here’s Lucille Clifton:

blessing the boats
(at saint mary’s)

may the tide
that is entering even now
the lip of our understanding
carry you out
beyond the face of fear
may you kiss
the wind then turn from it
certain that it will
love your back
may you open your eyes to water
water waving forever
and may you in your innocence
sail through this to that

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