As a grad student, I lived for a few years in Bellingham, Washington, where the sunny summers (I kid you not) were a steady 75 degrees. The winters were New England dark, but lacked the drama of the deep cold, how (save for the conifers), the green gives way to sooty gray, flat white.

November, and I remind myself that I love Vermont in myriad ways, and one of those is how the seasons’ shift reflects our changing lives, too. In my walks along the river, it’s just me and two deer, a flock of starlings. The wildflowers have withered to dry stalks.

I have a bone scan at the local hospital (no major deal, a routine baseline). Afterwards, I walk around this building in the mid-afternoon light that’s already darkening towards dusk. Cold drizzle. Exactly a year ago, I was a patient here, and I find the window of the room where I stayed. That first morning, a social worker and nurse came into my room. The social worker gently suggested I write a will, stat. The nurse empathized with my diagnosis. Was I dismissive? She said, I have stage 4 cancer, and here I am, working again. It was not a comeuppance, but a widening.

A friend stops by with dinner. I slice apples and bake crisp. November, season of hearth.

The sick are ourselves, was a thing his father [also a country doctor] had said. When you stop understanding that, take your name off the wall and throw your bag in the river. It was advice he had only sometimes forgotten. ~ Niall Williams, Time of the Child