Ruined!

In this sweet May rain, working on the covered porch of one of my favorite libraries, I remember a rainstorm about a year ago. My daughter and I were in Rome, eating dinner in an outdoor café. In the storm, the staff had pulled a plastic cover over the terrace. The effect was warm, cozy, intimate. Beside me, a group of young men were drinking wine. One man remarked that Italy had ruined him. There was no way he could return to his Chicago cubicle and drink lousy Dunkin’ Donuts coffee. Hearing this, my daughter and I laughed aloud. Italy had ruined us, pleasurably, too.

Likewise, after a week of such largesse at the Vermont Studio Center — the gift of time and space, the pampering of meals, the kindness of the place — I wondered if I might be a little ruined, too.

Not so, perhaps. May in Vermont is one of my most favorite times. Here’s the gold of marsh marigolds behind an old grange. Gold.

Psalm for the Ordinary.

Ordinary Life, by Barbara Crooker

This was a day when nothing happened, 
the children went off to school
without a murmur, remembering
their books, lunches, gloves. 
All morning, the baby and I built block stacks
in the squares of light on the floor. 
And lunch blended into naptime, 
I cleaned out kitchen cupboards, 
one of those jobs that never gets done, 
then sat in a circle of sunlight
and drank ginger tea, 
watched the birds at the feeder
jostle over lunch’s little scraps. 
A pheasant strutted from the hedgerow, 
preened and flashed his jeweled head. 
Now a chicken roasts in the pan, 
and the children return, 
the murmur of their stories dappling the air. 
I peel carrots and potatoes without paring my thumb. 
We listen together for your wheels on the drive. 
Grace before bread. 
And at the table, actual conversation, 
no bickering or pokes. 
And then, the drift into homework. 
The baby goes to his cars, drives them
along the sofa’s ridges and hills. 
Leaning by the counter, we steal a long slow kiss, 
tasting of coffee and cream. 
The chicken’s diminished to skin & skeleton, 
the moon to a comma, a sliver of white, 
but this has been a day of grace
in the dead of winter, 
the hard cold knuckle of the year, 
a day that unwrapped itself
like an unexpected gift, 
and the stars turn on, 
order themselves
into the winter night.