
At the Vermont Almanac‘s celebration of volume four, I talk with people I haven’t seen in years — my daughter’s beloved elementary school teacher, a couple who bought a house down the road from where I once lived. As the staff from the center where the celebration was held clean up, ready to head home themselves, I walk out with my former neighbors. We stand for a few moments by a fire burning in a pit, talking about sugaring and our daughters and Vermont dirt roads. Through the wide windows, I watch people wrapping up the remains of cheese and dried sausage. In my house, I am still eating the remains of Thanksgiving’s cheese, the sharp cheddar I used in my friend’s birthday sandwich.
Overhead, stars strained again the clouds.
I’d been asked to read a poem, “Dear Day in Late September,” for poet Kerrin McCadden, who couldn’t attend. I consider this poem a love letter in the tenor of love letters I admire most — elegantly stripped down, mindful of life’s deep sadness and the beauty of our world fat with bees.
On my way home, I think of the line “I believe in good gloves.” As a former sugar maker, I’ve used up countless gloves. With my small hands, I’ve never had a pair of gloves that fit. At Thanksgiving, in a shop looking for boots, my daughter handed me a pair of petite gloves. I nearly laid them to the side (thrift, thrift), but I bought them. Yesterday, wearing these gloves to bring in wood, I realized the gloves fit me perfectly, downy on the inside. Warm, strong, practical. What do you know.
…. I want to tell you I am
thinking about closing up shop for the winter. I am settling
my accounts. Enclosed, please find a brace of birds,
which I hope you will accept as payment against last winter’s
oil bills. There is much to do. Up in the barn, I have spelled
out the name of the man I love with crabapples. It is one way
to know a man’s heart. I believe in his name, though,
like I believe in good gloves. Oh, how we fight the cold
with everything we have.
— Kerrin McCadden