
No fooling here — no glossing over — in the past month there’s been two homicide/suicides, neither a domestic, all gunshot wounds, (that’s a total of four souls), right around where I live, then an early morning drug raid a few minutes’ walk from my house. I live in a middle class town, shabby around the edges, a little more spiffed up on some streets. In the evenings, I sometimes walk by the house my daughter’s friend bought. In the dark, he’s often on the roof, hammering or sometimes lying on his back, staring up at the stars. We talk for a bit, and I urge him, be careful.
I write this not out of salaciousness, but more to mark where I am, what’s happening in my state. Malcolm Gladwell wrote that planes never crash because of one reason. Likewise, there’s not one word, one single reason, one sole cause for any of this. These deaths and this raid isn’t my story, but it’s a piece of my story as our lives are all interconnected, the net that holds us together only as reliable as the weakest knots. Yet, as a whole — as a town, a state, a country, as the human story — we keep on.
On this balmy November afternoon, the elementary school kids run on the grass in their t-shirts. Magical insects hover — what my daughters called blue-glass bugs. Later, I stand talking with a friend in the grocery store. I’ve run out of the house, sockless in my Danskos, to replenish the coffee I finished that morning. I met this woman when I was writing Unstitched, so whenever I run into her, we keep talking and talking. What a joy it is to see her glowing and alive, this woman who had a life harder than anyone should ever endure. When I come out, darkness has fallen. The crescent moon hangs over the town, luminous.
