What’s in the News, What’s Not.

No fooling here — no glossing over — in the past month there’s been two homicide/suicides, neither a domestic, all gunshot wounds, (that’s a total of four souls), right around where I live, then an early morning drug raid a few minutes’ walk from my house. I live in a middle class town, shabby around the edges, a little more spiffed up on some streets. In the evenings, I sometimes walk by the house my daughter’s friend bought. In the dark, he’s often on the roof, hammering or sometimes lying on his back, staring up at the stars. We talk for a bit, and I urge him, be careful.

I write this not out of salaciousness, but more to mark where I am, what’s happening in my state. Malcolm Gladwell wrote that planes never crash because of one reason. Likewise, there’s not one word, one single reason, one sole cause for any of this. These deaths and this raid isn’t my story, but it’s a piece of my story as our lives are all interconnected, the net that holds us together only as reliable as the weakest knots. Yet, as a whole — as a town, a state, a country, as the human story — we keep on.

On this balmy November afternoon, the elementary school kids run on the grass in their t-shirts. Magical insects hover — what my daughters called blue-glass bugs. Later, I stand talking with a friend in the grocery store. I’ve run out of the house, sockless in my Danskos, to replenish the coffee I finished that morning. I met this woman when I was writing Unstitched, so whenever I run into her, we keep talking and talking. What a joy it is to see her glowing and alive, this woman who had a life harder than anyone should ever endure. When I come out, darkness has fallen. The crescent moon hangs over the town, luminous.

Words: Tragedy, Unfairness, Fortune.

Word comes into my email inbox at the end of the day that the literary journal Alice Says Go Fuck Yourself has accepted an essay of mine for their Bad-Ass Mothers theme. This delights me immeasurably. My silliness aside, there’s nothing light about this essay.

My small concerns asides, it’s a week not to be flippant. Acquaintances in our world here have suffered a tragedy, in a house with small children. A friend of mine who knows the family rails at the unfairness of the world. I remind her of what she knows well, that unfairness is a human construct. I’ve never seen evidence that the laws of universe pay any heed to that notion.

After dark, I wander through the neighborhood where cats sometimes appear and brush up against your ankle, purring. The clouds rub away, and a crescent moon gleams, buffed up and shiny, as if newly minted. All my life, I’ve been following this moon, Lady Moon, acquainted with her numberless faces, as she has shed her silvery light on mine. The streets are nearly empty tonight. Ursa Major hangs over a house where a blown-up pumpkin glows in the front yard. These days, I imagine Lady Moon charming my long-ago relatives, in a time so long ago we humans hadn’t yet divided the earth into countries.

On this walk, I remember a favorite line from Ann Patchett: “There can be something cruel about people who have had good fortune. They equate it with personal goodness.” That, perhaps, is its own koan.