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The true religion, the religion of snow…

/ Brett Ann Stanciu / 8 Comments

I stand at my kitchen’s glass door devouring blood oranges and watching the sifting snow. Blood oranges — could I choose a less local delight? I open the door and cast out the peels for the birds.

The cat Acer sits on my feet, listening to the morning radio news, too. Just over the river, my home state New Hampshire revels in the Presidential primary. Meanwhile, Vermont prepares for its March Town Meeting Day, with the calculations and passion of budgets and petitions. Close an elementary school? Pledge to become a pollinator-friendly town? So much of January in my state is devoted to public meetings and discussion/debate, to a reckoning of the way forward, a jostling for who’s running for what seat — and what seats might remain empty.

Meanwhile, snowy winter has finally arrived, spare and elegant. Fearsome and enchanting. As the days deepen in cold, the light hours increase: no stasis in this world.

A fan of local chicken, bacon, milk, my cat stares at my orange-sticky fingers with disdain. I crunch the orange seeds, too, devouring this sunlight sweet.

Here’s Billy Collins’ poem about shoveling snow with the Buddha:

[Shoveling snow] is so much better than a sermon in church,
I say out loud, but Buddha keeps on shoveling.
This is the true religion, the religion of snow,
and sunlight and winter geese barking in the sky,
I say, but he is too busy to hear me.

The sound of one hand clapping, revisited.

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This week, I unexpectedly find myself waiting for someone I don’t really know and end up reading a copy of Ken Wilber’s collected writings. Winter has finally come. The purest and loveliest of snowfalls fills up our world. I wait much longer than I had guessed. A woman comes in to sweep the floor, and we talk for a bit. Sunlight pours through enormous windows.

Here’s some Ken Wilber I soaked in:

You know the Zen koan, “What is the sound of one hand clapping?” Usually, of course, we need two hands to clap – and that is the structure of typical experience. We have a sense of ourselves as a subject in here, and the world as an object out there. We have these “two hands” of experience, the subject and the object. And typical experience is a smashing of these two hands together to make a commotion, a sound. The object out there smashes into me as a subject, and I have an experience – the two hands clap together and experience emerges.

And so the typical structure of experience is like a punch in the face. The ordinary self is the battered self – it is utterly battered by the universe “out there.” The ordinary self is a series of bruises, of scars, the results of these two hands of experience smashing together. This bruising is called “dukkha,” suffering. As Krishnamurti used to say, in that gap between the subject and the object lies the entire misery of humankind.

On my way home, I do something I’ve never done in the winter. I park along the edge of an unfamiliar road. I’ve forgotten my hat. The wind is wild, as if I’m on a stormy sea. My hair tangles over my eyes. Oh sun, oh wind, oh endless snow.

Midwinter, here.