A Story in Here…

I visit a woman whose family bought a house on a peninsula in a glacial lake. She invites me in — a stunning place of wood and glass and French doors — nothing polished, all preserved as if it’s still World War I. There’s an enormous stone fireplace. She tells me that, after a hurricane in the 1930s, the original owner (who lived elsewhere, New York or Pennsylvania) never returned after he heard that all the trees on the peninsula were destroyed, save for eight. He sold the house to this woman’s family. Great pine trees tower over the lawn and hydrangeas.

She says to me, Imagine the view of the lake in the thirties, when the trees were all gone? That must have been stunning, too.

I drive home in a sudden windstorm. I’m passing a stand of poplars, their leaves crinkled and finished with summer. The wind blows leaves through my open car windows, over a bucket of apples, on my library books, into the lap of my skirt. Ahead of me, two cars are pulled over, blinkers flashing. A branch smashed the windshield of one car. Two young woman stand in the road, the wind circling, twigs snapping, rain beginning in earnest. One woman raises her arms in a giant Y.

There’s a story (or two) in here for sure….

FEMA Folks and Us.

Last week, when the FEMA folks make their initial appearance in our town office, I step out and chat with a woman from Georgia. I intend to skip the meeting that’s about to transpire, but I’m interested to hear what these people are seeing around my state and how this whole FEMA thing works anyway. My new acquaintance tells me immediately that she’s exhausted. They’ve visited multiple towns, driving through rural Vermont.

She’s quite concerned about the impending cold, and I assure her that snow is (probably) not going to appear in October, almost certainly not accumulate. The FEMA folks are apparently working on the state’s natural deadline, putting as much of the state back together before the snow sets in.

By the time she heads up to the meeting about the FEMA portal and so much talk about culverts and more culverts, we’ve swapped stories about working and parenting and she’s shared her love of Atlanta.

On her way out, she leans in my door and says goodbye. It’s a moment: the handful of Vermonters and a few FEMA people — politeness all around — brought together by enormously complex events. A selectboard member says, We’re hoping for a nice fall so you can see Vermont at its best…

Last evening, I’m talking to my parents on the phone, standing on my porch and leaning against my house’s corner board, looking across the little valley that holds the town where I live, when I realize the world around me is pink. The light isn’t the streaming crimson of sunset. A soft pinkness suffuses our world: sky, valley, village, right down to my bare toes. September that feels like August, but is still definitely September. That’s where we are.

… two million naturally occurring sweet things…

On this last Wednesday in this August… a few lines from Ross Gay:

Sorrow Is Not My Name

—after Gwendolyn Brooks

No matter the pull toward brink. No

matter the florid, deep sleep awaits.

There is a time for everything. Look,

just this morning a vulture

nodded his red, grizzled head at me,

and I looked at him, admiring

the sickle of his beak.

Then the wind kicked up, and,

after arranging that good suit of feathers

he up and took off.

Just like that. And to boot,

there are, on this planet alone, something like two

million naturally occurring sweet things,

some with names so generous as to kick

the steel from my knees: agave, persimmon,

stick ball, the purple okra I bought for two bucks

at the market…

      —for Walter Aikens

The Putting Back Together.

A coffee drinking companion, winding around at the end of our conversation, posits that our world appears to be unraveling. He notes that grass and dandelions break sidewalks: an act of defiance.

While I’m meticulous about certain things (keep mice out of the house, learn to use a comma), my garden this year obeys no orderly rules. Cosmos and calendula mingle with tomatoes. Amaranth reseeded among the dill and parsley. Forget-me-nots, to my great joy, blossom in random patches. I plant giant coneflower — Rudbeckia maxima — around my house. Have at it. Rage on. Rage.

End of August, the frogs and crickets keep singing. Overhead, a gibbous moon in the night, creamy light through roving clouds. Here’s a thousand action and more…. all alive, multi-faceted, full-throatedly in defiance….

Reading After Twilight.

Quicksilver, the summer’s ended. Sure, there’ll be more long days, redolent with golden sunshine, but the air has sharpened, mist slinks through the valleys in the mornings, the flower petals are running towards ragged-edged.

Evenings, I read outside, the crickets tapping away at their slowing symphony, the mosquitoes on my toes, silent bees still sucking at sunflowers. The world moving along.

“It is not our job to remain whole.
We came to lose our leaves
Like the trees, and be born again,
Drawing up from the great roots.” 

— Robert Bly

In High Waters & Broken Roads, Temporarily Put Up.

A stranger tells me about her flood experience. She and her grown son had been camping beside a lake when the water began to rise. Unable to drive south to the town where they lived, they drove north to high ground and slept in their car in Craftsbury Common. The next morning, seeking road intel, they walked over to Sterling College. The college staff offered them breakfast. The roads had been damaged all around the town, and no one was getting in or out. The college put the family up for three nights in empty staff housing and offering gratis meals in the dining hall. “The food,” the woman told me, “was so good. Everything fresh from their farm.”

In the scheme of things — a problem: two people, marooned, sleeping in their car. The solution: empty rooms, plenty of food. Practicality and kindness.

…. And in this end-of-summer rainy-but-possibly-to-clear morning, a few favored lines from E. B. White:

“The crickets felt it was their duty to warn everybody that summertime cannot last for ever. Even on the most beautiful days in the whole year – the days when summer is changing into autumn – the crickets spread the rumour of sadness and change.” 

— E. B. White